The Bargain
The pianist sat worried at the
keys.
It was that moment when the sun
emerges from the night.
Or was it dusk, and had the sun
just set?
I forget.
Whatever time it was, whatever
day,
The man, not a religious sort,
Began to pray.
“I have no music,” was the young
man’s cry.
I have no songs to give. Lord, say
The word, unloose what’s pent up
in my heart.
I’ll change my ways, live only for
my art.
“How I regret my misspent days.
Let my soul sing again, and You
Alone will be the object of my endless
praise.”
Prayers from these swaggering
self-centered fools,
Who usually God deny, intrigue the
Deity.
And so He stopped the sun’s descent
(or rise)
And brushed His hand across the
pianist’s eyes.
It was a spell,
And so it fell upon the sad man’s soul.
Near blinded by the Light
That sat beside him on the quilted
bench,
He blinked, too stunned to gasp.
Every finger in his fists unclenched, unclasped.
The pianist saw no form or face,
But heard resounding in his bones
An unmistakable deep voice the
words intone:
“Be silent. Listen carefully to
what I say.
I have a deal to make with you
today.”
Tears welled in the young man’s
eyes.
Who would have thought that
prayers
So easy and immediately could
yield
Spectacular results like these.
“I'll go church more often,” he briefly mused,
“And not make fun of nuns and rosaries.”
“What is this deal?” the musician asked,
“Will I compose again? Will
thousands thrill
To bagatelles and variations
without end,
To fugues, and trills, and lilting
rounds, and
Choruses and songs? Will my
creative power,
once-inexhaustible, return ere
long?
“You shall, it will,” the Master
said,
“if you agree to terms I offer you
So light and free. All I will
restore to you
And more, if you make one small
sacrifice
For me.
“I’ll give you all the music that
Heaven can embrace.
I’ll yield the murmurs of My
Heart,
The swirling stars in space.
The wing beat of a hummingbird
The crimson of the dawn, the
lion’s roar,
I’ll fill your soul with sound
that never has been heard before.”
The young man was transfigured,
He almost would have glowed,
Except the thought of one small
thing,
Unknown, his ardor slowed.
“That all sounds quite enticing,”
he said
With some control. “But I can’t
help feeling
The price will weigh too heavy on my soul.”
The Light dimmed briefly, then
flared bright.
“There is a cost,” He said. “I’ll
give you all my music.
But your hearing take instead.”
“My hearing!” The pianist was
silent. Then, bending from the waist,
He fell upon the keyboard. The keys crashed in their place.
A terrible discord filled the
room. The sun’s reflection on the floor,
Quivered, then was no more.
“It is the law of Nature I
created,” the Mighty One whispered in his ear.
“For any force of Nature, an
opposite reaction must appear.
“Humanity, potentially my greatest
feat, hungers for art to lift them from defeat.
There is no other mortal, save
yourself, who can deliver them from grinding strife.”
“But how could I endure, not
hearing my own work?
This is my life!”
“You will see it in the faces of
those who do
And in their lives, transformed,
because of you.
You will see it in the changes you
have rent:
breeze-lifted seedlings, heaven-sent.”
The musician sat up straight, then looked away.
He could not tell if it were night or day.
But as time passed, the strain
Of sorrow on his face did not stay long.
“I never could resist a song,” he said at last,
with a hint of a wink, looking back at the Light
which already had begun to shrink.
“Perhaps it’s fair.“
“You’ll never know unless you take my dare.”
The Wise One paused.
“I know the pain of sacrifice. But never mind.
You’ll be glad when it is over,
but it still hurts at the time.”
And so the Light receded, and the
day began.
(You see, it was a rising sun, as
Franklin knew.)
At the keyboard, fresh improvisations flew
From the fingers of the sad young
man. Unfurled,
They rose into the air
And through the window's light,
In the direction of the sun
And the shepherd's silent pipe.
--L.L.Holt, 2020
Christmas Pianist, a painting by James Nyika
